What do you do when you get a crush on someone?
Submitted by Desi.
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What do you do when you get a crush on someone?
Submitted by Desi.
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I've brought up this point before...just bringing it up again...only with more detail...and a little more sarcasm.
Every once in a while, I look at the closest reflective object, stare straight into it, and ask..."Who are you?"
It's not that I don't know myself, or am having an identity crisis, or become some sort of green-skinned gamma-powered rage-summoned beast of a man with etremely durable denim pants whenever get a papercut, it's more me checking to make sure that I haven't turned into a hypocrite...haven't turned into something that, although I don't flat out hate, am flat out annoyed with.
People tend to act differently when around different kinds of people. Not necessarily a bad thing, mind you...sometimes, in a bad part of time, it's all that will keep you from getting killed. The problem is...the more this is done...the more the lines blur between "acting to fit in" or "acting to be appropriate" and being...you.
Whether it's acting like the perfect gentleman when with a date/girlfriend, then getting drunk off your ass and puking on over three miles of interstate highway while riding shotgun on somebody's F-350...or acting like the most peace-loving, conflict-avoiding, full-of-life, resolution-seeking member of the family who would be on the poster of some sort of Fisher-Price product, then going out in town, attending a DashBoard confessional concert, getting stoned off your ass and ranting about how you seek death and discussing your plans on how to attain said death, yet not actually doing it because Flogging Molly was coming to town the next week.
And when confronted by people from either side(s), we usually give them the answer that is the least likely to get our asses kicked. Basic survival instinct, understandable. However, we sometimes forget to ask the question ourselves. Not because we're afraid to answer the question...but because we're afraid that we don't have one.
I'll admit, it took me a while to figure this out, and when I turned 16 (or 17? My memory's a little rusty, for I am old and decomposing), I finally decided to just be me, no matter the company. It wasn't an epiphany, nor was it some sort of plan to make life a little easier on myself...I just got tired.
Why act differently to be accepted? The only thing that will happen is that people will like the side of you that you show them, whether it's a facade, or an actual side of you that you restrict yourself to whenever you're with certain company. It's great for a while...you get the attention and care that you want, but is all that really for you, or for what you make others think is you?
...I just got tired of it. I decided to just be me.<
...best decision I ever made.
Of course, I have fewer friends (which I'm okay with...I'm picky anyway), and girls tend not to want to do anything with me or date me once I tell them more about myself (apparently, the whole being "lame" thing is a big turnoff...go fig).
...and I'm okay with that.
...I'd rather be honestly rejected because I am lame than accepted because I am pretending to be cool. I...don't see anything wrong with that.
...meh, maybe I'll never date again.
...I seem to be okay with that.
...Who am I?
...I am me.
...and I don't mind.
...so ask yourself the same question the next time you're near a reflective surface. Just don't be afraid to answer, athough I can't guarantee it'll be the answer you want...
Yep...just another day...
Friends, Earthlings, Universians, hear ye, hear ye!
My ship is currently in the middle of the water, with an internet
connection rivaling the slownes of a 36.6Kbps modem. Why, just
attempting to make this post has taken me a good three hours! We
can't download anything past 5MB, even via MegaUpload or
fileshare or ANYTHING. Dailymotion and YouTube, and Stage6 are
all no-gos due to blockage X_X
And thus, my fellow humans, I have but one humble request...
Humble...yet a tad complex...
I need one of you, my dear beloved, to send me one (or more, if
you are so inclined) of the post-strike episodes of "The Office",
split up into multiple files (winrar would be awesome...but more on that in the next paragraph), with the
largest of any of these files being 4.9 MB (anything else will
just be bounced back by my ship's e-mail server), and e-mail them to me...one...at...a...time.
...and that, my friends is this is less a request and more of a plea ;_;
Also, please disguise these files by changing their extension to ".jpg" or some other image file, since the ship's ultraparanoid mail server blocks just about everything else. Yes, I do realize that an avi file of The Office averages at around 175MB. If you can send me one in RealMedia format with Variable Bitrate, that will also work too, if it makes the files smaller without making it look like a streaming video made for 56K modems =P Hell, we'll take mp4 or wmv at this point!
Also, I will need WinRar (or equivalent) to unsplit said multiple
files. Yes...I fail at life ;_;
The reason is not merely for me to enjoy these recent episodes,
but also a fairly large number of crewmembers onboard my
watercraft are also missing this wonderful show, and the current
connection that we have times out about thirty seconds into the
streaming videos on the NBC website. We are slowly drowning in a
pool of madness brought about by less than three hours of sleep a
day and constant threat of danger...we need a mind break, really.
Thusly, I ask...I request...I plead...for one of you wonderful,
beautiful souls to make my simple dream of watching "Dinner
Party" and/or "Chair Model" come true.
If you've never met be before, Do it for humanity.
If you are a friend, either in real life or here, Do it for
friendship.
And if you're in the United States of America...
...do it for the people who defend your country, dammit -_- For
the love of all that is worth loving, a lot of us make an average
of $2.49 an hour with this job ;_; We need SOMETHING to live for!
E-mail stuff to s u r g i n g s h a r k @ g m a i l . c o m.
Again, if you even had the patience to just read through this
embarrassing plea, then I already appreciate you.
...man, that's gloomy weather -_-
If you could travel back in time, which era would you visit and why?
The Ice Age. I heard it was a pretty cool era...
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